the midnight in me (text)

[burningbrighter]

Hey guys,

Maybe this is a bit of a weird question, but...if you're trying to improve yourself, how do you track your progress?

I thought I was past worrying about this stuff, but a few weeks ago something infected me. And it brought me right back to my horrible school bully days---I was pretty scary. And I know this is late, but I'm truly sorry for those of you I hurt. If there's ever anything I can do to help, please tell me.

You might say I was possessed and not at fault, but...where I'm from, magic like that doesn't really comes from nowhere. It always latches onto existing feelings of resentment and cruelty and makes them grow. So I'm worried that that darkness is still inside me, waiting to come out. And I'm just...trying to figure out how to live with that.

Thanks.

-Sunset Shimmer

Comments

[goingbythebook]

[It wouldn't come through when he finally wrote anything, but Huey had stared at that message for quite a while before he put together his response.]

This is Huey. I think... Everybody's got something in their past that they're not proud of, whether they talk about it or not. But I feel like if you can look behind you and tell you're a different person, then you've progressed.

As for how to track it? Keeping a journal might be a good idea. A daily- or however often you want to do it -record of emotions, thoughts, experiences, and the like. Kinda like a diary, and you could treat it like that if you wanted, but making lists or just jotting down quick thoughts works just as well. It's hard to remember the details of life over time, and having a physical record could really help with reminiscing, or focusing on the parts of you you want to work on the most.

[burningbrighter]

Oh, you're right! How could I have forgotten?

I used to keep a journal, actually, but it was a two-way. I sent letters to my princesses letting them know how I was doing and asking for advice. It's strange not to be writing to anyone anymore, but...I guess I can rely on myself now.

Thank you so much.

[goingbythebook]

Well, if you still want someone to write to, maybe one of your housemates, or a good friend? Someone who could be up for keeping a progress journal of their own! Then you could exchange notes and cheer each other on.

[burningbrighter]

Hmm. I would've tried Fluttershy, but she's been busy lately. I'll ask around some, but that's a great idea. Thanks!