the midnight in me (text)

[burningbrighter]

Hey guys,

Maybe this is a bit of a weird question, but...if you're trying to improve yourself, how do you track your progress?

I thought I was past worrying about this stuff, but a few weeks ago something infected me. And it brought me right back to my horrible school bully days---I was pretty scary. And I know this is late, but I'm truly sorry for those of you I hurt. If there's ever anything I can do to help, please tell me.

You might say I was possessed and not at fault, but...where I'm from, magic like that doesn't really comes from nowhere. It always latches onto existing feelings of resentment and cruelty and makes them grow. So I'm worried that that darkness is still inside me, waiting to come out. And I'm just...trying to figure out how to live with that.

Thanks.

-Sunset Shimmer

Comments

[stillnewatthis]

I have a different perspective than you, that is all. I came online with this level of processing and capability, and though I undergo updates that does not change my fundamental understanding of how my programming works. You grew up, and your brain has developed over many years. Your thought processes have not been consistent. But you have gained much from your experiences that I need to gain as well.

[burningbrighter]

Yeah, organic brains take a lot of time in the oven to cook, so to speak.

I hope we've been able to help you too.

[stillnewatthis]

I am learning and advancing immensely each day. I could not be happier.

[burningbrighter]

That's always something important to try for. I guess...that's really what we're all doing. The best we can and getting better as we learn more about the world, right?

[stillnewatthis]

Conscious thought requires input, analysis, and memory. So your statement is correct. That is what it means to be alive. Or online!

[burningbrighter]

...heh. I'm kind of glad we can't go online here. The internet can be a nasty place. All that emotion raging on without context, forgetting that others have feelings...

It can happen out here in the real world too. And it did. But I'm glad we're all here together and can work things out.

[stillnewatthis]

Oh! I meant 'online' in the way omnics exist as humans are alive!