Grieving fathers tend to be messed up, and mine had resources.
And no, it's fine- I've had plenty of time to deal with it after all.
Essentially, the 'wiring' wasn't correct. The human body is equipped with various systems meant to create emotional response, to spur it onward one way or another.
A computer is not. In essence, once it became clear that the materials and systems weren't there, actually simulating it consistently fell flat. A little like when you're told there's a fly on the wall.
You can't help but notice it.
More than that, the false-reality of everything that was programmed in became steadily more apparent- as well as the fact that, being part of it, I could control quite a lot of it. It's a good way to get an untapped god complex, I'll note.
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And no, it's fine- I've had plenty of time to deal with it after all.
Essentially, the 'wiring' wasn't correct. The human body is equipped with various systems meant to create emotional response, to spur it onward one way or another.
A computer is not. In essence, once it became clear that the materials and systems weren't there, actually simulating it consistently fell flat. A little like when you're told there's a fly on the wall.
You can't help but notice it.
More than that, the false-reality of everything that was programmed in became steadily more apparent- as well as the fact that, being part of it, I could control quite a lot of it. It's a good way to get an untapped god complex, I'll note.